I'm pretty sure no one I personally know, knows this blog. Except maybe my sister. ::Hi sissy::
So I think that gives me the right to be able to rant. Almost like if you're gossiping with someone that is totally out of the circle, so you can almost say anything you want to say about people. (Almost anything)
So recently I went to a friends house with my BF. It's one of his best friends and actually he used to be my best friend for a few years also. We had a bit of a falling-out and things didn't end well. After about a year or so of no talking, he tried to start talking to me again to try and patch things up so it wasn't weird for my BF. I wasn't really concerned because I found more faults in this kid than I wanted to deal with so I was fine with ignoring him. After a few years we've been hanging out together more and more, because of my BF of course. I realized that he really can't handle someone disliking him. He always wants to be liked by everyone and sometimes you just have to deal with the fact that some people just don't like you. I think I got over that fact years ago. haha..
Anyway, we went to this friends house the other night after a family party and it was all the usual crowd. Thankfully my BF has realized that he really shouldn't and actually physically can't drink as much as he used to. I am not a drinker. At all. I've never gotten drunk, I've never thrown up from alcohol and I have no interest in doing so. When we arrived, it was around 8:30-9:00ish and another one of my BF's friends was definitely drunk.
As you may know, everyone has their own drunk personality. This kid, I'll call him Tiny, gets louder, slightly more touchy than he would ever be sober, and he cleans things towards the end of the parties. (it's not even a good cleaning)
I brought Malibu Pineapple and a cherry Slushie from 7-11 and I drank that. Throughout the whole night it was mostly just me and another girl, who is the GF of one of my BF's close friends. She's sweet and cute and we laugh about the guys mostly. Her and her BF are about 3 years younger than the rest of us and it really doesn't seem to make a difference the majority of the time. Only because my BF's friends are VERY immature. I'm pretty sure I would have a heart attack if any of them decided to grow up and not act like they did 7 years ago in high school. Her and her BF actually live together. They are the only ones in the group, aside from another couple that is our age and sort of in the group. They're only sort of because they live farther away and don't often get to hang in our hometown. THEY have their shit togeher. They just recently bought a house together, they both have great long-term jobs and I'm proud of them. And super jealous of course.
It's hard for me to be happy for these guys sometimes because sometimes my jealously just gets the better of me. Isn't that just natural though? My BF and I have been together the longest. Unfortunately he's not ready financially to move forward with me. He has the better paying job but student/car loans. I have the less paying job, no debt, and way more savings put away. How do we move forward? We've discussed things many times. I'm not too pleased about it but I understand him not wanting to bring the debt into the relationship.
To get back to what I originally was getting at, this certain GF and I were half joking, half internally sobbing about how our guys are being held back by the other immature friends that they love hanging out with. It's hard. Girls have always matured way faster than guys have. I remember in elementary school, all the girls started to sprout upwards in height way before the boys did. Then once middle school hit, the guys started to sprout but the girls were getting their periods so they were maturing emotionally. Then the end of middle school/beginning of high school hit and the guys finally caught up. Girls graduated and moved on to bigger and better things and the guys were still stuck in the twilight zone of immaturity. Here we are, 7 years later and only a handful get what us ladies want. Granted not every girl wants the same thing and not every guy is an idiot emotionally but I would say the majority are totally absent-minded about it. It's unfortunate.
By the time I get to be engaged, married and ready for kids, I'm not going to physically be able to keep up with them, if i'm lucky enough to even be able to have them.
Please God, this is my written prayer, aside from the one I say to you in my head all the time, please make it so I can have children. One of the reasons we were put on this Earth was to bear children. Please don't make it a difficult task. I beg you
Well, that's all for tonight. I'm at Soccer Sense in Monroe? for a couple hours waiting for one of the kids I babysit to finish up his practice. Thankfully I bought this Chromebook for this exact reason. I just noticed that there's an update I have to do. Once that finishes I'm going to try and watch something on Netflix.
Have a good night, Earth.
xoxo
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